A distance too far..!

Life takes you really far sometimes..! 

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Far from the place you were born
Very far from the place you thought you would never leave...!

Far from the ones you never wanted to leave..
Far from those who did not want to come back to you..
Far from the ones you left without a second thought
Far from the people you knew..

Far from all the family love 
Far from those moments with friends..
Far from the smiles that lighted up your day..
Far from all the sorrows you thought would never end..

Far from the person you were..
Far from the person you wanted to be..
Far from being free

Life keeps taking you  far..
From all these and more..
Giving more than you wished..
and taking away more than before..

It’s Shallow

The world is a huge place full of a lot many people! We are small entities in this world! Our world is very small when compared to “The WORLD”!  So we keep pulling a lot of people around us to make our world look a lil bigger. Our world comprises of “friends” and as life goes on our world keeps growing with friends! It’s a very dynamic process as people are replaced by new ones constantly..!

The problem starts now! It’s like filling your wallet with fake currency in exchange for the real one. At the end of this process, you have a wallet full of money but what is the use? You cannot spend it anywhere!

The truth is more complicated and interesting..! We are filling our lives with people who are there, just to add numbers to our world! However if seen closely, it’s like a layer of gas that that just evaporates time and again (Poof..Poof...Poof…) and leaves a “blank” in our world!

Coming back to what we wanted- our world looking big as compared to “The WORLD” and here it is - BIG and hollow..!

We somehow end up surrounding ourselves with people who we are constantly scared will evaporate at the slightest sign of trouble! We just keep running around making everything perfect for everyone to stay… Only to realize in the end that at times people just evaporate for a reason that even ‘reason’ wont understand..!!

It’s a constant guessing game as to who’s fake and who’s not..!

And a game where a correct guess hurts as much as a wrong one...maybe even more..!

Golden Cities

Flying over the Golden cities...


It all began with a runway lit with diamonds..
Huge flash lights shrinking gradually
Toy car's  moving mechanically in their assigned slots


Flying over the  Golden  cities...


Its now a dull gold sea glistening far below..
With minute specs of light burning lying dying embers of coal
Sparkling, Glittering and now blinking...they are a mirror image of the stars above

A tar colored river flows by quietly among random blocks of gold
All connected by shining gold chains..(The never ending highways)
Flying over the  Golden  cities...


Soon its the everlasting darkness beyond the clouds
The moon floods the ocean of clouds, which now resembles the creamy desert...
Flying over the  Golden  cities..


Moving as close to one as far as we are from the other...
With the spotlights growing bigger, we reach another starry path
that leads to another city.. the Golden city that it might be to someone flying above..!

Random...

Some people hurt you so bad and a few even have the courage to pretend that nothing happened.. But worse is when you have to pretend that nothing happened..and that you are not angry and that its all okay!!

Can you answer this?

When walking on the road of life...

some ask you to take the right path...while some warn you against the wrong ones...

some ask you to avoid the shortcuts...some say take the path no one takes to reach new heights....

some just say that its how you walk through it that makes the difference..

some give importance to who you walk with..and that a good company is all that you need..!

Just one thing....


At any step if anyone asks you-'Are you happy?'

There should just be an instant one word to answer that-'Yes!'

How can i be angry for something like this!?

There are people who lose their temper very easily and people who never seem to be angry no matter what..! Also there are those who never lose it, but when they do then its beyond what you ever expected it to be..!

There are these times when you're angry with someone but then you don't have a reason strong enough...You cannot show it and at the same time you cannot hide it..! Obviously they notice the changed you...and then you don't have an answer to their -"are you angry?"

During this "sort of angry" phase..you do not show your anger because it is of no use! Even when you've expressed your anger.. the other person doesn't do much to make things better! And somewhere inside you, a voice tells you that maybe you were expecting much more than they knew..!

though their question remains unanswered,but i'm sure they'll understand one day!

Stolen..

As i step out today...

with the little "devils" slowly pouring over me

Walking swiftly..

as the chilly wind flows past my face

Some glistening drops stay on my hair...

as i walk towards you in the street light

You give me your "it feels so good to see you" smile...

And i give you back something similar(blush...)

A short hug follows..

but is as comforting as ever..!

Aand we talk...

giving words to all that has been unsaid...

how i would so love to steal a kiss..

And say more than any words could ever do...

Standing there behind the curtain of rain...

how it would make you all mine...

The kiss in the rain...

The stolen kiss in the rain..!

Not mine..!

It all begins with the word 'mine'.

Once attached, it changes a lot of things! The sense of possession makes us act in a different way no matter how much we deny! As soon as we start believing something belongs to us, there is an implicit right that tags along! (which is completely justified)
When it comes to people, one may become possessive about them just because of this right ! It feels good to hear "you're mine" but when that expression reaches a literal extreme it becomes a trouble for both sides!
But apart from that, its the mindset that we form about them which is hard to get over. "Only i have the right.. you should do this only for me"...and thousand other unavoidable expectations...The smallest clashes have the deepest impact. It happens that who we think belong to us were never really ours or maybe who we thought would be ours forever left us on the crossroads! All those times this 'mine' is the heart of all problems.

There are so many things we love in life. As an example, you are the rose in my garden but that does not mean i will be jealous when people look at you or praise you or even love you for that matter! I will love you because you will still be the most beautiful flower in my 'garden'...!!
Without attaching a 'mine' also we will not love them any less! And also this way no authority will exist and thus no mindset.Acting without the sense of mine is the best way to keep away from all these strong feelings..!

You're mine....? ... Not anymore..!

Can anything be better?

That phase comes in your life when you seem to be attracting all the negative things..and your world comes crashing down...BANG! 'it' hits you in your face...there you are feeling 'lost'...

only if you could get 'the hug'.. there is nothing more that you need at that time..

no matter how bad things are...it just magically pulls you out of this world!

The 'tight' one...just holding onto the "I'm here with you" hug..says so much more than any words could..!

And not every person can make it 'special and beyond'....its a rare talent! And you've hit it big if you have that someone around..!

Sometimes, the smallest things contribute the greatest share in one's happiness...!

Randomm...

I was reminded the other day about old days(..glimpses through the diary..)

It felt so nice when i realized that i had won over a few of my weaknesses at that time..! its hardly a matter of 2 years and i can say it with a smile that the things that used to make me weak at that time are now gone! More than that it makes me feel stronger when i take on life right now! As I love to refer to it.. the mind-heart battle..! A strong mind leads the heart out of difficult situations..And at times we must let the heart lead..It brings us to new horizons...!

That strong an emotion....?

You know i have been thinking about this since quite sometime now..! Finally writing it out...

Love is a very strong emotion..It bonds,breaks and does a lot more than we think it can! how when in love we start looking at things differently...all the world's troubles seem to move away because there is something compensating for all of them..that strong an emotion!

Doing whatever it takes just to make that someone feel special. Love,if unreturned makes us convince ourselves pretty well that "my love is enough for both of us for now!"

Quoting someone i listen to a lot-"Just falling for someone is a good feeling in itself irrespective of whether the opposite person has fallen for you!".If there is love coming from the other end also,then nothing like it..! Love fills everyones lives to an extent that one can go on endless about love..that strong an emotion!

Oh and what happens if there comes distance..? Do the two words- "Long distance" overpower this one strong emotion? Do the feelings reduce just because now the "distance" tag is attached to their relationship? Obviously they will not..! But then,how much ever little feelings existed..no matter how genuine,the psychological effect of this distance is bound to hit them for sure..! Now is it that strong an emotion??

Well if i think about it..(i can only think not much of an experience here) its just how well you can convince yourself about this just being a phase and how what you share is above all such petty issues..(referring to it like that does reduce its effect!) If there is something strong..something to look back upon..something to look forward to then that should be enough to want to hold on! Otherwise there will be just one question was it that strong an emotion??

Random....

There are these times, when the heart cannot stop smiling.. you maybe doing something you enjoy,eating at your favourite joint or spending a moment with a loved one..

these are the times that we want to just hold onto...! And when its been a loong time since we have had any such moments we wait for them...!

When do we miss them more- just after they end.. or when its been loong since they occurred....!

Do i miss you more just after you leave or when we have not met for long.......

thoughts..!

People around me tell me i think a lot! well at times true but then most of the times not so much..!

In fact, I avoid thinking about things that will eventually put me into that vicious circle of thoughts..! Unless someone puts it in front of me and discusses it with me i am going to run away..!

This is exactly what has been going on. I have put a wall in front of my feelings..Feelings like leaving Pune..the end of engineering..looking forward to something soo different..the end of certain friendships i thought would last.. the beginning of new relationships that i never saw were coming..and loads of other things related to these..! i have been stopping myself from thinking about it or writing about it so that i don't fall prey to the sadness dangling form it all..! And i had plans of continuing this for a while..! But lately one thing triggered the other and somehow a small part of this feeling struck me..! i know i am not far from the time when this feeling will take over me..!

till then.. all smiles.! :) :)

The stars have FADED away...

All the starts may have faded away....

But do not lose hope..

You will see them some other day...!

when your eyes won't be clouded with tears..

And a happier day comes your way...

when the smiles will be here to stay..

and you get what you pray..

come what may..

you will see them another day..!

Random..!

All days will not be shiny and bright..! There will be days all dark and cloudy..!But you must not be disheartened.. because it takes a rainy day to put a rainbow across the skies..and it all depends on whether you know where to look!!

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The fact that we are enjoying ourselves is enough to hold on! Sometimes its more important who we are with and what we are doing rather than seeing a larger picture and finding a name for relationships..