Stay away...!! i've no time for you right now

Life is a coin.. It has two sides to it.. (yes you guessed it right..) - the "happy side" and the "sad side".. In maths the probability of getting either side is 0.5.. In life i don't really know.. no one does maybe.. many people make statements about it saying - " Life is how you see it", "life is how you react to things" etc.. but i don't believe them all the times.... at times i feel the coin of life is biased.. and i am sure many of you will agree to that.. Its too much of the "sad side" that we need to learn to get over..!

As i said before i don't know whether keeping the sadness away is in our hands or not but at times it becomes very important to attract happiness... i've already talked about them in a previous post..

its those times when you need to increase the "happy memories list".. And at this point I see clouds of sadness taking over everyone.. leaving no ray of hope..! For all these people i am again and again emphasizing on the importance of flying above these clouds instead of getting wet in the rain of tears..!

As for the moment all i can think of doing is writing a letter that you may be able to connect to if you are among them..!

( i so hope you are not.. and if you are then i so wish that you end this phase soon..)

Dear sadness,

I cannot start with a 'hi' because i dont really want to be nice to you..! Now this is basically to tell you that presently i am in a stage where i think i have had enough of you.. i was just looking back at the recent past.. dont you think we've spent too much time together.. you are sort of holding onto me and i need some space of my own.. I have alot many things to do and i might sound rude but the truth is i have no time for you..! so if you yourself would be understanding enough to step back..it would be really nice.. and i dont think i am asking for too much.. for all the times we have been together for all the times i held onto you.. i think its time for you to do something that makes me feel better..

I know i am being too harsh.. but there are times when you have to let go of some things to accommodate other things..!

i am sorry but you'll have to leave..

Chandni

P.S. in case you meet your counterpart, just ask it to contact me..! thanks!

In Love..

In love with sleep..! Sleeping is the best thing that man could have learnt..! Apart from being refreshing.. it relaxes one to an extent nothing can.. both physically and mentally..

Also, it can be seen as a means to escape from the real world... And so it is..

Into the world of thoughts.. where everything is as we have in our mind! Yes dreams are just a replica of what we are thinking! Many people say they don't see dreams.. That is not true.. its just that they sleep so deep that they don't remember it!

Dreams are usually all the things that we fantasize about.. But at times its composed of all the things that we dread..! Either ways when we get up next day( for those who remember it) it affects our mood..! There is also a feeling of relief after a dream where everything was going against us..!

All in all dreams are the other world we live in! They truly show us what is there in our mind! even the things we were not aware of..!

Smile..! I am not giving you an option..!

What will you do when you know what is about to happen.. when you can see how things are going to be.. (not clearly but still).. And what if you see the end of a beautiful era of your life, on the horizon..?

First thing that comes to my philosophical mind is - "Live whatever time is left to the fullest..! and make the most of it!"

But there is this element of sadness that is dangling from everything that you do.. everything...

Every moment that passes by, leaves a thought lurking at the back of your mind - "Its the last time.."

Being the last semester I have the same view towards things..! i want everything to be perfect.. All friendships at their best and new friendships strengthening so that i can count on them as well.. etc...basically there should be just happiness all around..! So that when it ends there are no regrets! But in case there is sadness around.. then just remove it as soon as you can.. because in a situation like this there is no time for :( .. it should be just ":) "

By being sad you are just wasting time. This time is to be treasured. It cannot be spent crying over things that were or things that could not be .

And you're not just wasting your time but also that of people around you whose mood depends on yours! they are left wondering how to make you smile and in the process are not able to smile themselves!

Smile..! More than you it makes the opposite person feel better..!

Give importance to Love..!

how is it.. that no matter how much you love someone.. its never enough..! I read one of these days about How " love is not enough to change reality.." true.. But what i am talking about is that love does not even affect people's heart...! (ironically, that is exactly what it is supposed to do..!)

Well what i don't understand is that when the opposite person knows what you feel still how can they be all cold hearted towards you!!? how can your feelings not matter at all?? Do they really not care about how much it affects you..? Or are they themselves just pretending to be "unaffected" by it..?

All this just proves how much love is taken for granted..! Love is the best thing someone can have for you.. and it must be valued beyond anything! Even if you cannot return it in the same magnitude..!

Because one day when that love will no longer be there.. you will miss out on it..! trust me..!

Random...

I have become very good at pretending in front of you that I don't care! I divert myself pretty well.. Might even laugh it off...

But little do I realize, I cannot pretend to myself!

Because when you're gone and the situation gradually sinks in..I drown..!

I cant help but feel miserable about the entire thing.. My heart just cries and so do I..!

Random...

When someone confesses their feelings.. It should be done in a way that even if the other person has nothing for you.. What you say should make him/her fall for you..! May not be permanently at least for that moment..!

I LOVE YOU..

Wish you loved me back the way I do

Only if you cared the way I do

You missed me the way I do

You thought about me like I do

Only IF you tried to be with me like I try

You cried for me like I cry

You smiled at me the way I Smile

And when we are together,think that life is worthwhile

Only if you understood why my heart is fragile..

When disappointment prevalis and sadness piles

When you and me are separated by miles

All those times I was irritated, only if you UNDERSTOOD

And just promised to stand by me, like I would

I would be yours for as long as I could..!

I wish we were kids..

because then we would not have tried to explain every action logically..

And there wasn't any need to apply so much thought into why things happened

because then we would not have had much experience to know that what was unfair

And we would not apply brains to the matters of the heart

If only we were kids,the word 'complicated' would not have existed

And being upset would not be as miserable

As kids,'expectation' would be an alien expression

And there would be no need of explanations!

No heated arguments No cold wars..

A happy heart with no scars..

When Surprise was a "SURPRISE!!" and not a shock..

when the mind did not have to worry about a block..

People turn wise when they realize

Being a Kid was the best thing that could've happened to them..!

Distance between two people...

To realize the importance of someone
And know how much you love them

Not being able to see them everyday and
Missing the smallest things about them

Thinking about them every hour
Hoping that the time would fly

Crossing out 'blue' days on the calendar
Writing LONG letters as the days pass by

watching the moon for hours hoping they are doin the same
Every moment Wishing that- This DISTANCE never existed..

I miss u..!

This can be called a letter to my grandfather..though that is not what I had in mind when i began writing this..

Sometimes I wonder how it would have been if u were around..! How different a day would be..

You would call me everyday and visit me twice(minimum) a year in Pune.When I would come home I would spent a few days at your place..or maybe you would be staying with us at our place..I wonder what we would do?..talk?! about what? Watch t.v.? Sit n do calculation of your shares..(you know now there is a faster way of doing it on the Internet now) I could teach you that..

But no! No..I will not let you waste time on such unimportant stuff! See, morning i could come with you n visit d temple..then maybe we would cook something for lunch(making things easier for mom)..then afternoon i will let you sleep..In d evening we would go for a walk..aim of the day would be to spend time together!

I know i am not giving u any space or any time for yourself..But that is me..i will not change. This may be crossing your mind that i am like this because I do not have you by my side anymore..Oh no no..i had always been like this!

If only i had u with me today..you would be a major reason of the smile on my face..thinking about u n about d last days i had u around..still brings water in my eyes..! ;-(

The bond i share with my grandfather is too deep to understand.. I may write more about it in my next..

Something to ponder over…

Well I don’t know if this is the right post to start a blog.. but as told by my friend-“There is nothing different about writing a blog.. all the things that cross your mind which you put down on a paper,just type them here..” Hence my blog will talk about the feelings that produce scintiallations in my mind..! And here is the recent one.

RELATIONSHIP-almost everyone is a part of some kind of relationship (complete or incomplete)- in friendship or in love. There is a never ending adjustment and compromise that everyone is involved in. But, people change! Change is a very dynamic word in itself! We change according to our surroundings. (This is not about adapting)! The people around us influence us to a very great extent.We may not realize, but very gradually we tend to become like them. But we should not lose ourself somewhere in that process! Because that would eliminate the very reason ‘those people’ liked us!
I am not suggesting that we will always change for the worse. It may be the other way round. This is about just one of those times when we adopt the negative traits of people close to us. This “trait” may be their weakness but that does not necessarily mean that they will accept that in you!
In the beginning of a relatioship you are purely yourself, uninfluenced! The other person likes you for that! So don’t change to an extent that one day the person is looking at a reflection of himself in you. Something that you used to complain about once upon a time is now what people see as a part of YOU! Because that will not be a good feeling! People who are used to the earlier you are bound to compare! And all of a sudden you have lost yourself. What people liked in you at one point of time is no longer a part of you!

I would leave you on this note-Be yourself! People love you for that!