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There are times in your life when you have to make decisions about what the right things are..! you spend hours pondering over your decisions...In most of these times there is a "mind-heart" battle! the logics of this world versus the desires of your world..! i say follow your heart..! You need not monitor life all the time..! Just let things flow..! Do what you feel like..Make your heart smile.. pamper yourself..! Live life the way you LIKE it...the way it brings you happiness..! You deserve this and much more.. so give it to yourself without hesitation! don't hold yourself back..because life will not always be a bed of roses... but as long as life gives you roses you can make it for yourself..!

just one thing...

Never regret anything that ever made you smile..!!

Just to see if "you" are worth holdin onto

Let go..! sometimes thats all you can do..! Sometimes thats exactly what you must do..! when the "me" is tired of being "me"..tired of hoping everyday that "you" would be mine! just let go..! If nothing else to see if it is worth holding onto..!

"you" will come back if it deserves someone like "me"..

and then "me" will have reasons enough to hold tight..!

You You You.....And You..!

Its all about you.. it has always been about you..!!

This 3 letter "you" has over-powered the 2 letter "me" loong back!

You talk..You cry.. You smile.. You want to go for a movie..You feel like eating this..You don't want to talk anymore...Its plainly just you..!!

And me..? well i am just watching all this happen..accepting everything as it comes.. telling "me" that there is no point trying to run away from what has happened.. because that how "you" want it to be...!

.....Silence.....

How sometimes someone else's silence Kills..!

But sometimes that is all you can give to the opposite person!

Silence is at times a way to keep away difficult questions about yourself...

and how Sometimes you're forced to be silent when there are a million firecracker questions bursting in your mind!!

How silence gives you the best answers in the best possible way...!

And at other times silence is the best way to answer someone...!

A silent smile, a silent tear...

A silent wish,a silent fear...

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Randomm...

How sometimes you wish people did not assume ..as all that it leads to is misunderstanding..which hurts either them or you and most if the times both! How simply people assume you're no longer the same and start changing themselves trying to adjust to the change! Result - they are the ones who are changing (which eventually leaves you in a tough spot!)

You know better!!

When you feel the world's going against you....

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Dear God..

I am not at all happy with what you've done to me! I don't deserve this at all! You knew what i wanted! I have been begging you for it since so long! then why? Why couldn't you have listened to my prayers this ONE time? Was it so difficult to listen to what my heart desired?

But at the same time i cannot even put this blame on you, because I know you love me and are constantly working to make things best for me!

You know much more about what I need ( which in this case i guess happens to be different from what I want!)

And that is exactly why I cannot get mad at you!

I know that you can see the future..and hence know what will be beneficial for me. Also I know that there is a reason for this and one day I will also look back upon this and realize how whatever happened was in my favour! But till then all I can be is disappointed!

So please help me see how this is the right thing!

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Don't worry! There is someone up there who cares for you more than You yourself!

Random...

Its a funny thing about a great loss.. you are upset but not upset enough! and that is simply because your heart does not accept it completely!!

Also there comes a time when you have lost so much that you wonder if there is anything more left to be lost! At that point there is neither sadness nor disappointment.. in fact you may even find yourself smiling!

Amazing how the rule of "happiness and sadness" applies so well everywhere!

Distance continued..

Distance in a Relationship

Sitting next to them and still feeling lonely
Keeping them in your heart and at the same time feeling empty

Telling them everything but still forced to keep sumthin to urself

Showing Love(& care) and in turn be dismayed
Then trying so hard to hate them

thinking 10 times before saying 10 words
When misunderstandings and altercations become a part of the day

when expectations are unexpectedly put down everytime
Then compromise seems to be the only option

When the happiness of their presence is overshadowed by disappointment of their behaviour
Losing all hope in them,but still loving them with all your Heart!

Asking yourself-Why they came into your life?

Every moment Wishing that- This DISTANCE never existed..
This distance Never existed..!

When "the coin" Stands straight..!!

We all know the two sides of the life's coin very well now..Here is a new scintillating thought...

When we are living the "blue" days we cry about how things were earlier,our emotional calculator calculating the "change",wondering whether our smile will ever be as long as it was,hoping and wishing that things would be better soon..

When we are happy there is a smile on our face but somewhere inside the mind knows its not for too long( I know too much negative thinking..), there is a constant fear of someone stealing it from you. Your mind may not tell you this everytime but its there somewhere!

All this is still tolerable..(Yes we are used to it now) But i see something new.. What do you do when you face both together!

When your heart is torn apart into two pieces - one soo happy and the other hurting like hell!

When on one side of the Life's puzzle the pieces start to fit in.. whereas you start losing pieces from the other side..??

what do u tell yourself at that time..??
"there is something slipping out from your hands on the other side..!! what are you being happy about?"
or
"what are you sad about.. now that you have what your heart desires?"

Everyone's Life alternates between these two emotions.. But life throws new challenges at you every now and then and here it is..!!

Stay away...!! i've no time for you right now

Life is a coin.. It has two sides to it.. (yes you guessed it right..) - the "happy side" and the "sad side".. In maths the probability of getting either side is 0.5.. In life i don't really know.. no one does maybe.. many people make statements about it saying - " Life is how you see it", "life is how you react to things" etc.. but i don't believe them all the times.... at times i feel the coin of life is biased.. and i am sure many of you will agree to that.. Its too much of the "sad side" that we need to learn to get over..!

As i said before i don't know whether keeping the sadness away is in our hands or not but at times it becomes very important to attract happiness... i've already talked about them in a previous post..

its those times when you need to increase the "happy memories list".. And at this point I see clouds of sadness taking over everyone.. leaving no ray of hope..! For all these people i am again and again emphasizing on the importance of flying above these clouds instead of getting wet in the rain of tears..!

As for the moment all i can think of doing is writing a letter that you may be able to connect to if you are among them..!

( i so hope you are not.. and if you are then i so wish that you end this phase soon..)

Dear sadness,

I cannot start with a 'hi' because i dont really want to be nice to you..! Now this is basically to tell you that presently i am in a stage where i think i have had enough of you.. i was just looking back at the recent past.. dont you think we've spent too much time together.. you are sort of holding onto me and i need some space of my own.. I have alot many things to do and i might sound rude but the truth is i have no time for you..! so if you yourself would be understanding enough to step back..it would be really nice.. and i dont think i am asking for too much.. for all the times we have been together for all the times i held onto you.. i think its time for you to do something that makes me feel better..

I know i am being too harsh.. but there are times when you have to let go of some things to accommodate other things..!

i am sorry but you'll have to leave..

Chandni

P.S. in case you meet your counterpart, just ask it to contact me..! thanks!

In Love..

In love with sleep..! Sleeping is the best thing that man could have learnt..! Apart from being refreshing.. it relaxes one to an extent nothing can.. both physically and mentally..

Also, it can be seen as a means to escape from the real world... And so it is..

Into the world of thoughts.. where everything is as we have in our mind! Yes dreams are just a replica of what we are thinking! Many people say they don't see dreams.. That is not true.. its just that they sleep so deep that they don't remember it!

Dreams are usually all the things that we fantasize about.. But at times its composed of all the things that we dread..! Either ways when we get up next day( for those who remember it) it affects our mood..! There is also a feeling of relief after a dream where everything was going against us..!

All in all dreams are the other world we live in! They truly show us what is there in our mind! even the things we were not aware of..!

Smile..! I am not giving you an option..!

What will you do when you know what is about to happen.. when you can see how things are going to be.. (not clearly but still).. And what if you see the end of a beautiful era of your life, on the horizon..?

First thing that comes to my philosophical mind is - "Live whatever time is left to the fullest..! and make the most of it!"

But there is this element of sadness that is dangling from everything that you do.. everything...

Every moment that passes by, leaves a thought lurking at the back of your mind - "Its the last time.."

Being the last semester I have the same view towards things..! i want everything to be perfect.. All friendships at their best and new friendships strengthening so that i can count on them as well.. etc...basically there should be just happiness all around..! So that when it ends there are no regrets! But in case there is sadness around.. then just remove it as soon as you can.. because in a situation like this there is no time for :( .. it should be just ":) "

By being sad you are just wasting time. This time is to be treasured. It cannot be spent crying over things that were or things that could not be .

And you're not just wasting your time but also that of people around you whose mood depends on yours! they are left wondering how to make you smile and in the process are not able to smile themselves!

Smile..! More than you it makes the opposite person feel better..!

Give importance to Love..!

how is it.. that no matter how much you love someone.. its never enough..! I read one of these days about How " love is not enough to change reality.." true.. But what i am talking about is that love does not even affect people's heart...! (ironically, that is exactly what it is supposed to do..!)

Well what i don't understand is that when the opposite person knows what you feel still how can they be all cold hearted towards you!!? how can your feelings not matter at all?? Do they really not care about how much it affects you..? Or are they themselves just pretending to be "unaffected" by it..?

All this just proves how much love is taken for granted..! Love is the best thing someone can have for you.. and it must be valued beyond anything! Even if you cannot return it in the same magnitude..!

Because one day when that love will no longer be there.. you will miss out on it..! trust me..!

Random...

I have become very good at pretending in front of you that I don't care! I divert myself pretty well.. Might even laugh it off...

But little do I realize, I cannot pretend to myself!

Because when you're gone and the situation gradually sinks in..I drown..!

I cant help but feel miserable about the entire thing.. My heart just cries and so do I..!

Random...

When someone confesses their feelings.. It should be done in a way that even if the other person has nothing for you.. What you say should make him/her fall for you..! May not be permanently at least for that moment..!