You know better!!

When you feel the world's going against you....

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Dear God..

I am not at all happy with what you've done to me! I don't deserve this at all! You knew what i wanted! I have been begging you for it since so long! then why? Why couldn't you have listened to my prayers this ONE time? Was it so difficult to listen to what my heart desired?

But at the same time i cannot even put this blame on you, because I know you love me and are constantly working to make things best for me!

You know much more about what I need ( which in this case i guess happens to be different from what I want!)

And that is exactly why I cannot get mad at you!

I know that you can see the future..and hence know what will be beneficial for me. Also I know that there is a reason for this and one day I will also look back upon this and realize how whatever happened was in my favour! But till then all I can be is disappointed!

So please help me see how this is the right thing!

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Don't worry! There is someone up there who cares for you more than You yourself!

Random...

Its a funny thing about a great loss.. you are upset but not upset enough! and that is simply because your heart does not accept it completely!!

Also there comes a time when you have lost so much that you wonder if there is anything more left to be lost! At that point there is neither sadness nor disappointment.. in fact you may even find yourself smiling!

Amazing how the rule of "happiness and sadness" applies so well everywhere!

Distance continued..

Distance in a Relationship

Sitting next to them and still feeling lonely
Keeping them in your heart and at the same time feeling empty

Telling them everything but still forced to keep sumthin to urself

Showing Love(& care) and in turn be dismayed
Then trying so hard to hate them

thinking 10 times before saying 10 words
When misunderstandings and altercations become a part of the day

when expectations are unexpectedly put down everytime
Then compromise seems to be the only option

When the happiness of their presence is overshadowed by disappointment of their behaviour
Losing all hope in them,but still loving them with all your Heart!

Asking yourself-Why they came into your life?

Every moment Wishing that- This DISTANCE never existed..
This distance Never existed..!

When "the coin" Stands straight..!!

We all know the two sides of the life's coin very well now..Here is a new scintillating thought...

When we are living the "blue" days we cry about how things were earlier,our emotional calculator calculating the "change",wondering whether our smile will ever be as long as it was,hoping and wishing that things would be better soon..

When we are happy there is a smile on our face but somewhere inside the mind knows its not for too long( I know too much negative thinking..), there is a constant fear of someone stealing it from you. Your mind may not tell you this everytime but its there somewhere!

All this is still tolerable..(Yes we are used to it now) But i see something new.. What do you do when you face both together!

When your heart is torn apart into two pieces - one soo happy and the other hurting like hell!

When on one side of the Life's puzzle the pieces start to fit in.. whereas you start losing pieces from the other side..??

what do u tell yourself at that time..??
"there is something slipping out from your hands on the other side..!! what are you being happy about?"
or
"what are you sad about.. now that you have what your heart desires?"

Everyone's Life alternates between these two emotions.. But life throws new challenges at you every now and then and here it is..!!